shroom or not to shroom?

[matomato11]

i have been thinking of trying magic mushrooms in a while but everytime i am convinced i pull myself back. I am not scared of what shroom do in general but i am scared on what they would do to me. I suffer from paranoia in real life and at times i have suicidial thoughts and i feel very depressed, when i have these feelings i never did extreme actions but i ended up in dark places of my mind feeling really down when i feel like this i usually manage to understand that i am in a not clear state of mind and therefore; i try to wait until the feeling passes and stay alone for some days adding to this, when i am in this state i sometimes have slight hallucinations and am kind of spaced out. On the other hand though sometimes i am very cheerful and kind of hyper and my mind works very fast and i love life and everything in my life. All this happens without the effect of any drug in my system its just me. My main question is if it the right choice to try mushrooms i was thinking to get a very small dose to start with and then work with it but could this actually make me have a harmful trip and should i just accept iit is not right type of things for me? or should i accept i better not have this experience?

[Penguin2]

Shrooms don't sound good for your life at the moment man. Keep the connect, you can always do them went you feel like it will be a good trip. Not much said suggests your trip will be positive. That is just my suggestion.

[bballerinri2]

Well if you have a history of mental illness or "problems" for the love of god don't do shrooms and if you have any doubt in your mind don't do it. I'm kind of going though the same thing, I've been researching shrooms (erowid, etc) for over a year now and finally have a legit connect and plan on trying them soon, thing is depression runs in my family and I've suffered depression myself, but I think if taken in low doses and you work your way up then it's generally safe. Can't wait to try them and learn more about myself, the world and the human mind... if you're looking for a drug to "fuck you up" this is not the drug to use.

But honestly I don't think shrooms are right for you, you could have a really bad trip due to your state of mind (depression, suicidal thoughts) but if you do end up doing them anyways start low, like threshold low then work your way up and see if their for you. Goodluck.

[Tinker]

not to shroom is the best answer. If you even need to ask the question you're not ready. Plus I agree with both answers above me. Give it a rest until you get your mind around it the correct way.

[Steven_Tyler77]

No, doing psychedelics is definitely not a good idea for you. Not shrooms, not acid, nor other psychedelic RCs. You probably won't have a good trip and whatever you experience while tripping might undermine any mental balance you get to have in real life.

Have you ever been assessed by a mental health professional for the paranoia? Are you under any treatment, either psychological or medication?

My advice (as a psychologist) is that you seek medical and psychological help for your paranoia and depression. What you describe to be going through should not be taken lightly. There is plenty of help available. There's no need for the paranoia and the depression to ruin your life.

Take good care of yourself and don't place an extra burden on your brain by doing shrooms now.

Also, if you ever have any doubts about doing a certain drug, don't do it. It's safer and spares you a bad trip that can be triggered by the anxiety linked to the doubts you have.