Anyone else?

[bballerinri2]

Anyone else have a mental battle with yourself when you first started your drug use? I started out using vics then move on up to weed and had a really tough mental battle, one side saying this isn't you and the other saying "me want drugs" or it isn't that bad. I think every single person here knows what I'm talking about, just wanna find out for sure...

Once you concur that battle life is so much easier no more stress, that happened to me last year and boy was it hell :p

[Ranga]

Nah I jumped into weed and alcohol use with no hesitations or thoughts otherwise. Except when I started smoking weed I couldn't understand how people did it every day and thought I would just do it on the weekends and every now and then like alcohol. I ended up just doing it more and more untill I'm at the point I'm at now where I just smoke throughout the day, everyday. I'm now having a bit of a mental battle on whether I have to start cutting down. My lungs are fucked and it's just really hard to be bothered doing anything like finding a job or education when you smoke this much weed. I know I should cut down but it's really hard and I can never get around to actually doing it lol.

[Aberzhulan]

I never had a mental battle. When I first started smoking weed, I jus enjoyed it. Didn't have much else to do, and I don't think there was ever a time (when I first started) where I only did it a few times a week. Then, when I stopped enjoying weed and started enjoying opiates, it was just a once in a while thing. I realized I enjoyed it too much, so aside from the one or two times I went on a fun filled week of it, I didn't do it so much.

I do have mental arguments with myself every day, not involved with drug use. I suppose I'm jus crazy.

[girl]

Yeah... Its kinda like.... are drugs an activity like sports and movies? Im always wondering if Im considered a druggie or not. Why cant I have fun doing normal people things anymore (besides music and art)? Or is it just a mindset switch of what I enjoy doing in life? I dunno

[nowhereboy]

I had this battle at first.... i would stop before sniffing a line and think "is this really me?" "do you really want to do this?" etc, I never seen myself becoming a drug user when i was growing up and i knew it would break my familys heart.

Didnt stop me tho.

Im way past that stage now tho, drugs got me by the balls. Now my inner battle is more along the lines of "can i really be fucked with the comedown?" haha...

[Ewok]

For me its difficult to just get up and quit my drug of choice. Ive been blazing bomb ass weed since i was in elementary school I'm now 21 and smoke up on a daily bases. I smoke before work, at work ( behind the dumpster ) and after work, and stay high all night and day long. I don't like being sober lol.

If i go downtown, ill bring my pipe and smoke on the way. I'll smoke when i get downtown. I'll smoke before the bus ride back.

I even smoked weed at my first grade teachers house lol.

I love weed. Im like a living testament of a die hard pot smoker. If you could overdose on weed, id be dead by now.