Well....here I am. 1 week clean after a 2 week meth binge. Lost my job, could lose both my cars and house......and mucho meth just a call away...ugh. help?
Almost lost everything....2 week meth binge
Well....here I am. 1 week clean after a 2 week meth binge. Lost my job, could lose both my cars and house......and mucho meth just a call away...ugh. help?
"It all depends on how we look at things, and not how they are in themselves. " - Carl Jung
Can you at least tell the story with some detail, this thread is really lacking content for a tragic story that could potentially be a very interesting story for some of us. Sorry for your situation though. Had you already tried crystal? Were you bangin it? How much did you spend total? How much do you owe for your cars and shit, what job did you have? We need to know these things in order to provide any help/advice and mainly moral support, since thats mostly all we can do.
Were you just expecting people to read the long sentence(s) and say, "I'm sorry to hear that, stay strong and start the process of finding another job. You will get back on your feet, it will just take some faith and time" - because that's all we really can say with the lack of details and description of how you are dealing/feeling about the entire situation.
But that's a lot of damage for two weeks bro. Howuch did you really do? It sounds like you have a serious problem dude, but if its only been two weeks, you can act fast and self intervene before anymore damage is done. It normally takes people months of serious drug abuse to get where you are. Stay strong brah.
Last edited by ProperPropaganda; 03-25-2010 at 10:46 PM.
Let me hold you in a vice tight.
Is it time for a mic fight?
You're like a pagan trying to battle someone who is Christ like.
From what I've seen from Kontrol's posts in Ups and Downs, he's a fan of uppers, that's the most I can pull off the top of my head without doing any "research". So I'm sure this isn't like the first time he tried it.
But yeah, I understand that you're coming down and you're tired and sore and depressed. When you get some more energy, or end up back on ice (Don't do that) write the story of what you remember. Obviously don't give us an essay about your daily events for two weeks, but at least fill us in on details. As Deez said, all we can give you is just the generic cookie cutter "Good luck, stay strong" lame post without actually knowing what happened. Then we can at least tell you how stupid you were and to not ever do that shit again!
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Having realized that, divorcing all notions of our peers and oppressors, all that can remain is that which would seem surreal.
Here now we admit the death of our former sanity.
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What Deez and Falc said. Plus it could possibly be something we can all learn from.
Until we get more info try to not do meth again. Maybe there is something here someone can say or something that will help you. It will be that much easier the longer you have been clean.
Yeah well meth is pretty much the most hardcore drug in the world. You gotta fuckin' watch that shit.
For fucks sake, join us in IRC.
Stop, relax and remember/even in the worst weather
You'll find a way across it/There'll be brighter days, honest
So get up, get out and get somethin that's on the real
Forget what you were taught/And show these people how you feel.
here goes the story....
takking adderall for 6 months...topped out at taking .5g in 3 days...kinda feeling on the side of crack monkey...so I take the next logical step after falling into a bit of extra money...GET SOME FUCKIN meth. whoohooo.
Turns out my buddy lives with a dealer. ATM right around the quarter, to a half, then a gram turns into an 8 ball that was purchased in ATL for 2 bills...
i had been having auditory hallucinations while alone in my house....so we got back from ATL with the 8 ball and I blacked out....
here comes the crazy shit and I hope you guys can help me peice this together because it seems to make people around me uncomfortable when I talk about it....
so I blacked out, rigiht? woke up to my mom, soon to be ex-wife and mother in law. I was awoken in the office on my couch which I am quite fond of sleeping on.
THE FUCKED UP PART. upon entering the bedroom I find the top matress shifted waay to the left with blood (from my hand) on the horizontal side toward the upper left hand corner. then on the bottom of the bed right on the bend going from horizontal to i vertical there is more blood from my hand that is smeared....like I had been dragged....more blood on the wall, just outside the bedroom in the kitchen...mark on my arm like it had been dragged across something roughly....abrasions on my middle finger and next finger that look like finger nails took chunks out of them, and a blood blister just above the nail on the other finger. now I have bruises on both my arms like someone dragged me.....WTF happened?
pictures of injuries: edit coming soon...
Last edited by Kontrol; 03-26-2010 at 10:59 PM.
"It all depends on how we look at things, and not how they are in themselves. " - Carl Jung
man, it almost sounds like someone rufied you.. regardless though, I wish you the best of luck
In this playhouse of infinite forms I have had my play, and here have I caught sight of him that is formless.
I figured out what happened....I was just about to jack off before I blacked out and then my subconscious had to rape my conscience to get off....
"It all depends on how we look at things, and not how they are in themselves. " - Carl Jung
You really need to stop taking meth dude. That is some fucked up sounding shit and you obviously did it to yourself.
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Yeah...I'm taking it easy now thanks. Everything is looking up so thats whats up.
"It all depends on how we look at things, and not how they are in themselves. " - Carl Jung
Man ive been there, but not there. Thats intense. Im sure I dont have to tell you how crazy shit can get will your all twacked out. FUCKED UP shit can happen. The shit is the crazyiest shit there is.
Spoiler for wait, you like having sex AND money too? Your blowing my mind johnny 5:
Sobriety confuses and frightens me.
I guess im a little late posting this, but I know exactly the kind of shit you're in. Meth took everything from me. Friends, family, my car, my job, my house, my freedom; and ive been through rehab twice.
It really sucks man. Hope you stay clean.
Next month will be 2 years clean for me
Hoody buddy!Originally Posted by Hoody buddy
Long time no see man. Glad to hear you're clean and getting things back in order. I know I'm not the only one who was wondering where you've been. Glad to hear things are better man.
Sláinte mhaith!
Hope you are doing alright Kontrol! Seen you haven't posted in a bit and just wanted to check up on ya brotha.
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