one of the worst nights ever (DXM)

[feline hatewave]

dose: 600 mgs (20 capsules)


dosed at about 10:30 and tried spreading some of them out so i wouldnt get sick (which worked).


11:59- cool so far, if i look at the cieling long enough, the popcorn on it starts to merge together and kind of flow, i think i like it, and i feel kind of slow motion. theres a light on low and the idea of the shadows its casting fascinate me so much, light doesnt hit them, they create another line on the wall, and a darker section of the room. but my cieling is somewhat irritating, and i want to punch or claw through it. (i spent about 5 minutes laying on my bed trying to convince myself that it was possible for me to take off my cieling.)

12:30- (this is where my handwriting turns into a crazy scribble) but what i can read says this:this is what insanity feels like. walking is a task. i had a lucid dream lying here that a bush had like a head or and the stem was a neck or something and librarary (hahaha at spelling) books, everything is blurry and it feels like my brain is giving up on vision.

i swear it felt like hours between these two entries

12:42- wow, i can still write, im laying on my side but im not laying on anything and its itchy and blurry and double vision.

anything beyond this is unreadable

9:04- this is after i "fell asleep" and woke up in the morning. im not sure what time i fell asleep because of time distortion but i know that after 1 am, it was hell, it was terrifying, disguisting, mental hell. i hated it and im propabl not going to attempt DXM trips anymore. i felt so disconnected from the world, and i thought it would last forever, i was thinking about killing myself and i was repeating over and over to my self "i am brandon, i am brandon, i am brandon" trying to give myself SOME sense of self and reality. i felt like i was in my room last night for days. i dont remember ALL that much about this point, but i remember that i thought my cat was like going through it all with me and stuff. (i feel closer to the cat now HAHA)


well it is now 11:25 am and i feel like my brain took a beating, im definately feeling the after effects and im so hungover and all i can really do is sit there and stare at the wall.

all in all, terrible experience, propably never doing DXM again (it was my 4th time)

[Milla]

Nice report. Its dam odd tripping with pets. My cat hung around me while on DXM once, which doesnt usually happen.

[HeroInTheHat]

I realize you said you'll probably never try dex again. I think you will very soon though, and once you do you'll be glad you did. The same thing happened to me except I was over 2500 mg's. I was so lucky to live that day (or so it felt like it.) It was my first experience with it and I guess I was so dissociated that I couldn't even throw up lol. It was a good experience in my eyes.

[EJ25]

I realize you said you'll probably never try dex again. I think you will very soon though, and once you do you'll be glad you did. The same thing happened to me except I was over 2500 mg's. I was so lucky to live that day (or so it felt like it.) It was my first experience with it and I guess I was so dissociated that I couldn't even throw up lol. It was a good experience in my eyes.

Wow... please tell me you had the powder or did an agent lemon... I can't even imagine how that many robogels or that much syrup would make your insides feel.

[notverysalmonlike]

Wow... please tell me you had the powder or did an agent lemon... I can't even imagine how that many robogels or that much syrup would make your insides feel.

I was thinking exactly the same thing EJ

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BTW, nice report OP. Don't let one time stop you. Try it again sometime when you feel ready. I'm sure you know the deal.

-Tom

[BCXdro]

I realize you said you'll probably never try dex again. I think you will very soon though, and once you do you'll be glad you did. The same thing happened to me except I was over 2500 mg's. I was so lucky to live that day (or so it felt like it.) It was my first experience with it and I guess I was so dissociated that I couldn't even throw up lol. It was a good experience in my eyes.

Are you sure it was 2500mgs...you wouldn't really be able to move, let alone remember ANYTHING.

to OP: Damn, that sucks man. You should post what else you wrote just for laughs, but yeah I know what you mean by mental hell, that nothing is normal, everything is what you don't want it to be, and your biggest fears become reality, you feel something in you isn't right and you shake your head in pure insanity and know that there is no escape, you think for an answer, a way to stop it and the only thing that comes to mind is suicide.

But yeah, I didn't know you could trip that bad on dxm. But on shrooms, WHOLE different story.

[HeroInTheHat]

Yes, I was in my friend's basement on the bed. I couldn't walk, the task was just too difficult. To me, I thought I was in the actual place hell. All of my feeling left me, It was my first time so that's why I thought I was going to die.


Oh and btw, this was before I knew anything about drugs. So I thougt I didn't take enough and in like 30 minutes more I redosed, then repeated, and repeated...

[feline hatewave]

Nice report. Its dam odd tripping with pets. My cat hung around me while on DXM once, which doesnt usually happen.


yea,, my cat was sitting on the pillow the whole time and i remember begging him to make it stop. he must have been like ....9_9 what the fuck is this kids problem. the scariest thing for me was the no sense of self thing, and having to continually repeat information about myself to myself

[kombucha]

Animals must sense this kind of stuff, because my kitten always hangs around me when I'm stoned, and when I've had a bad trip she usually stays with me, which I thought was kinda weird.

2500mls is a SHITLOAD of dxm... I'm surprised you remembered anything. God story. Maybe you could try to scan in the pages of your writing or something, could be interesting.